Let it be for God’s Glory

“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

As the days go by, my husband’s sight dwindles. He may be legally blind already, we do not know. He has an eye exam later this month to determine that, but the diagnosis won’t change anything. He has already given up his electric bike and is now walking with a blind cane. His vision is so limited . . . I do not know how much he can even see when he looks at me. My heart breaks for him and I am constantly praying for Jesus to restore his sight. I just want him to be able to do the activities he wants to; I want him to be able to have a job (as this is his desire), and to continue taking the beautiful photographs he enjoys taking. There are so many places I need to show him, but I know he will not be able to see all of them in time.

JD told me that only about 10% of those who are blind are completely and totally blind. I pray with all my heart that he does not become one of that number. But we do not know what the Lord has planned for him. I only know that nothing I do or say will change anything. However, trusting Jesus will make this journey so much easier, on both of us. And my main desire is to make it as easy as possible for my husband. So, as much as my heart is hurting as I imagine how it must be to lose one’s eyesight, I will trust in Jesus. God knows what He is doing. There is a reason for all of this, whether or not we understand it. All I know is that God has a plan; I am here to help and support my loving husband, the strongest man I know, in his journey, stumbling along to blindness. And I know with every fiber of my being that Jesus is walking with JD all the way, and with me. One day we will understand. But for now, I pray that we can help others going through this process. Let God have my tears, my heartache, my worries . . . . Let God use this for HIS glory.

My apologies for not sharing any craftiness in a while, and that this post isn’t crafty. There’s been a lot on our plates with this journey, and I started a temporary position in January, just for tax season, which is keeping my time occupied. I also started a journey of my own, learning a new career. Hopefully by next January I will be able to work more on my own, but it will take time and a lot of studying. I love learning, however. And, with God’s blessing, this venture will give me a more flexible position; one that will allow me to take JD to/from work or appointments as needed. I grateful for the opportunity and thankful for those who gave it to me. But mostly, I’m thankful for Jesus for always carrying us through the hard times and giving home for the future. Craftiness to come . . .