My Heart

“In that hour he healed many people of diseases and plagues and evil spirits, and on many who were blind he bestowed sight.” – Luke 7:21

Today my heart is heavy. My husbands blindness is really hitting us hard, as his vision is fading fast. His heart is heavy with the reality of it all and how to continue to provide for me as his vision fades and blindness creeps further in. He is working with some state programs to assist with this transition. The goal is for him to find a stay-at-home position that he can work when blind. Unfortunately, the program will require him to spend some time in Phoenix and away from his current work here in Payson. And, yes, I work as well. But he wants to be a good provider. It will all work out; we have faith. However, the journey is difficult and full of feelings.

I find that when I am overwhelmed with emotions, turning to Bible journaling helps to heal my heart. Spending time with God in His word and prayer is the part that heals. The artistic portion helps me to concentrate on Jesus, reflecting on God’s truth, while I pray and listen to the Lord’s comforting words and goodness for my life. I don’t know if you believe or if you would ever be interested in Bible Journaling, but I highly recommend spending time reading and studying the Bible. I currently use a Bible dictionary and The Tony Evans Bible Commentary to aid in my understanding. I have Bibles that are strictly for studying and taking notes and then I have Bibles in which I paint and art-journal. Since I first started Bible journaling in June of 2019, I have learned and grown in my faith more so than I would without the journaling process. Give it a try — email me if you have questions on how to get started. Perhaps I will make a post or two about just that in the future.

It is 2:31 am and I just finished some prayer and Bible journaling. The envelope holds a prayer to the good Lord above — Jesus is the great physician. My biggest prayer is for supernatural healing of my husband’s eyes. But if it isn’t God’s will and JD is supposed to reach people through his future blindness, then I ask that God prepares us for the future, comforts our hearts and minds and gives us the ultimate peace that only Jesus can provide. This will be a new adventure, but God always provides. His will, not mine, be done.